You are capable, contrary to what you think of yourself. Because look at how far you’ve come, and remember the people who believe in you.
Remember way back when you had ambition, drive and this chip on your shoulder that pushed you to surpass yourself like never before. When you had expectations of yourself, and the belief that you were capable of A’s and not D’s, that you were blessed with potential.
You have to shine now, and it’s time to polish what you had from the start.
for crying out loud, You are an A student. You’ve done it before, you can do it again. Stop this lackluster boring approach you have to your responsibilities. You can do better seriously. Where is your drive, and your motivation? Its not good to be obsessed with studies and getting A’s, and it’s good that you’re accepting of whatever comes. But you are blessed with the great teachers, fascinating content to study, the time and resources to further yourself, so it’s about time you pushed yourself.
And yes God’s will above everything else, and you put in your best and let him decide your fate. But you are really more capable than getting average or above average scores. And maybe if you committed everything to God, you’d have hit that level much earlier.
It’s time to say that you want it. You want to have those excellent results, because you can do it. And that it doesn’t hurt to succeed and it would be nice too. It’s time to admit that you were made to do more, outside of school but in the realm of studies is well.
It’s time you took more ownership over this. No more passing through the motions. No more accepting the mediocre. You need to live out your full potential, or you’ll always regret it.
When those feelings, that can only ever be felt, happen, you know it’s something.
How often do I ever find myself speechless, unable to express it with words, images, actions, noises… anything for that matter
But I can’t
L is for the way you light up my universe, when you show me the little intricacies of the world in the distant stars that bespeckle our nights and the fairy dust in pouring rain.
O is for the oceans you swim for me and carry me through, because you are the strongest person we both know, and that I also cannot swim.
V is for my vanishing acts that you are forced to tolerate constantly. But they are never for long, as you always bring me back.
and E, E is for your existence.
because I know you are out there, even though I haven’t met you yet.
Every point that loops and returns again
Everything is to recreate those organic lines of a body that are so imperfect
And yet, I will never be able to mimic it
And those irregularities become a standard I won’t be able to reach
And so every sinuous wave
And every rise and fall
Is something special we have never noticed before
And we realise that there is beauty in us
We are defined by beauty because our outlines and beautiful
And therefore, we are beautiful
We live in a broken world filled with broken people who constantly try to make themselves whole again. And to do that, sometimes they break you, to fix themselves with a piece of you, which will never be returned to you again.
It’s inevitable that you will become broken.
A stranger may break you,
a friend may break you,
I may break you…
Because you, just like the other broken people around, are fragile shards that were only meant to be held together by tender loving hands that people just do not have.
So when you break, don’t try to gather your pieces and put them back, you will cut yourself. But let me be there to handle your shards and sharp edges, and let me help you gather back your strength. Because even when you stand back up, with your chin up, there will be scars that remain, and won’t ever leave you. But they don’t make you any weaker or any worse, for they are a symbol of how you tried and how you never gave up on yourself. And that is all you will ever need to strive for - yourself.
I used to tell myself whatever happens happens. I don’t have any specific age I will start dating at.
Then I realise there’s nobody at all
And I guess that’s fine. Because there’s really more to life. I know I’ll grow up into one of those people who’ll need to get married and have someone by their side, and I want that. But it’s time I see there’s more to life and more to my future than settling down.
I think I need to have bigger dreams and exciting ambitions no matter how much I’m okay with domesticity (because cooking is hella fun)
Because I want to believe that no matter what happens, and no matter how we feel at the end of each day, that there’s something better, somewhere over the rainbow, maybe, way up high.
Or maybe that something, that paradise out there, has trickled down on us, and we need to be sensitive enough to find it
I don’t know
Three years in this school and counting and I’m just becoming more cynical about everything
Why does everything feel so absent or unreal